After a while

After A While

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
and company doesn’t always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises.
You begin to accept your defeats with your head up
and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult,
not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build your roads on today,
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much,
so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure,
you really are strong
and you really do have worth.

And you learn …
And you learn …
With every goodbye, you learn …

A midnight dance

A Midnight Dance

Clothed in only the skin I was born with
My soul soars freely in the light of the moon
I leave behind the darkness of my earthly trials
Knowing I will return to them all too soon

I leave behind the bondage of possibility
Allow myself to wallow in my own desire
I clear my mind of other people’s perceptions
Fanning my freedom like the flames of a fire

I search for harmony, for peaceful co-existence
For insight and understanding of the fruit I bore
Naked only in the corners of my heart and mind
Free from the chains of vulnerability that I once wore

No longer do I wear my heart upon my sleeve for display
Nor do I wait for others to confirm what I should feel
Letting my soul wander freely in the light of the moon
Exploring all the many emotions that are so real

A lovely lady

A Lovely Lady

He found his special lady
The mirror of his heart
Now he shares a dance with her
His story with her starts

Her silhouette so gentle
Within his eyes he sees
Just what the world can offer
With love that sets you free

To dance when there’s no music
To hum when there’s no song
Within his heart he gathers
The love that lasts so long

For she now writes his music
The words are in her heart
That gives their love great meaning
Their dance in stories starts.

A Friend

A FRIEND

A woman of talent, a woman of thought,
A woman of charm and good taste,
Independent and private.
Observant and quiet,
A woman of natural grace.

A woman of truth; a woman of honor,
Firm in her beliefs and convictions,
Courageous and brave.
Though sometimes afraid,
Seeks no favors nor dispensations.

A woman of subtle humor and wit,
Is pleased to hear words of good cheer,
Approves of gentle jesting.
Finds debasement distressing,
In such case, just turns a deaf ear.

A woman of kindness, a woman of care,
Whose heart is as big as outdoors,
Can love with a passion.
Can bleed with compassion,
Shows respect and love for what’s yours.

A friend I trust and entrust with my soul,
A friend of no age and no race,
As I am, she accepts me.
Seeks no cause to reject me,
A friend, I’ve been given by grace.

A vision in the snow

A VISION IN THE SNOW

With a vengeance came the blizzard,
The snow fell thick and fast,
Directed by a howling wind,
That whipped and lashed and laughed.

For days it snowed, and it was cold,
Folks could not go outside,
The snow drifts and the snow banks grew,
Like mountains in the sky.

Every bush and every shrub,
And every limb on every tree
Was packed and wrapped in snowy white,
As far as one could see.

More wind, more snow, more icy cold,
The whole world turned white, it seemed.
For days and nights the storm raged on,
The worst tempest ever seen.

Then suddenly one night,
Precisely at the Midnight hour,
The snowstorm stopped; the moon came out,
And the sky was filled with stars.

The night was hushed and quiet,
No motion anywhere,
A silence like none heard before
Cut through the frigid air.

Where mounds of snow had piled up
Now emerged fascinating things,
Like palaces and castles,
And mansions fit for kings.

Stretching high into the sky
Were white towers with white domes,
With dangling, hanging icicles
That glimmered, gleamed and shone.

And in a tower window
Was a silhouette in white.
A profile with a saucy nose,
Perhaps a princess in the night.

While down below, a brave, white knight
Sat astride a bold, white steed,
His shoulders back, his head held high,
Like he’d done some noble deed.

Behind him was a monster,
Smirking, lurking in the rear,
With frozen froth about its mouth,
And icy claws posed in the air.

Its tail, as long as a city block,
Frozen motionless and still,
For was it thawed, and could it move,
That tail would surely kill.

Off to the side, in innocence
Stood an alert and listening deer,
Its head was cocked; its ears straight up,
Perhaps, in a state of fear.

Then one last sight on that brisk night,
Appeared before one’s eyes,
A tiny chapel, bathed in white,
Suddenly materialized.

The moonlight struck it perfectly,
Gave it a golden glow,
The aura of a sanctuary,
A sacred place within the snow.

A holy site on this winter’s night,
Like never seen before,
Men were led to bow their heads,
As in the presence of the Lord.

Born in such an awful storm,
Were these awesome, wondrous sights
Who would believe such magic,
In the middle of the night?

In the morning the sun came out,
And shone smartly on the snow,
Which sparkled in the early light,
And let its beauty show.

How lovely now the world looked,
Serene and calm and bright,
But disappearing fast, it seemed,
Were those treasures of the night.

The palaces and castles
Were fast becoming melted ponds,
And the princess in the window
Was now a floating frond.

The brave, white knight had vanished,
His bold, white steed had disappeared,
And in their place, a trellis
Surprisingly appeared.

The monster, now a pile of logs,
No froth – no claws – no tail,
Nothing frightening at all,
Just a stack of posts and rails.

The listening deer, no longer here,
Just an odd-shaped thicket left behind,
Nothing special – sprigs and twigs,
Snarled, twisted, intertwined.

Everything had vanished,
As seen that prior night,
Each vision thawed and melted,
No more imposing sights.

With one exception, all was gone,
Just the little church remained,
The snow had disappeared from it,
But nothing else had changed.

One now could see it was composed,
Of Pine trees standing proud,
With branches raised like arms in praise,
Their tops, in reverence, bowed.

This lovely, little, wooded church,
Of course, would last forever,
Dressed in white in wintertime,
And green in summer weather.

Though the other images were gone,
It was right this vision stayed,
And tomorrow it would be the same,
As today and yesterday.

For Sale – as is

FOR SALE – AS IS

“For Sale – As Is,” read the realtor’s ad,
“Furnishings Included,
Beautiful Home, Magnificent View,
Private and Secluded!”

With interest, I approached the house,
Neglected, of course, and run-down,
Cobwebs and spiders, mouse tracks and mice,
And layers of dust all around.

The realtor said she was ‘sorry,’
She had not seen this place before,
Her orders had come in the mail,
“Sell the house – as is” … nothing more.

Distaste for the place showed on her face,
But I smiled and said, “I’ve seen worse,”
“Well, I haven’t,” she said, with disgust,
Her voice sarcastic and terse.

Wainscoting and woodwork – yellowed with age,
Hand-carved banisters – broken and cracked,
Floors – moaning and groaning under our weight,
Brass fixtures – discolored and black.

But all around, clues could be found
This once was a house that was prime,
Though it had had no loving care,
For a very long, long time,

A grand staircase swept up from below,
Elaborate in marble and teak,
Time and grime may have stolen its shine,
But there it stood … still proud and unique.

Then next a great room with huge windows,
Surely a ballroom meant for a dance,
Its draperies, musty and dusty,
Yet displaying an old elegance.

A chandelier hung from the ceiling,
Though archaic, it welcomed the light,
It gleamed a bit when the sunshine hit,
Thus proving it still had a life.

I closed my eyes and saw ladies in gowns,
And men in full dress, bowing low,
I heard a lively tune that filled the room,
And caught myself tapping my toe.

I saw children on the banisters,
I heard them giggle sliding by,
I saw them racing one another
Up the stairs for one more try.

The pictures in my mind persisted,
This abandoned place was once a home,
Love, warmth, and cheer one time were here,
Though now it was cold and alone.

“I’ll take the house!” I blurted out,
The realtor was struck dumb,
“Yes, I know what I am doing!”
She stood there, startled and stunned.

The price was right; the deed was done,
My name went on the dotted line,
We shook hands; she left in haste,
I guess for fear I’d change my mind.

I looked about and made a vow,
I swore I would revive this place,
Too much still alive in here,
Not time to go or be replaced.

I had the needed tools to use,
Soap and water … and elbow grease,
But most of all what I possessed
Was a wondrous dream that would not cease.

From laughing children on a staircase,
To dancing feet on polished floors,
From opened curtains at big windows,
To sunshine streaming in galore.

The poor realtor no way could see
The same house that I saw,
She only used her eyes to look,
So, she could not see it all.

Thus, to see things best, I must suggest
One employ all one’s faculties,
Not just one’s eyes to look around,
But use one’s heart to fully see.

Where will I be

Where will I be when I reached the end
Where am I going when I cross the line
Will all my fights be meant
Will my loved ones be fine

Can I live with sadness
Can I die with regret
Can I still feel the madness
Or is it a blessing I will forget

Will I leave with a smile in my heart
Or are the tears flowing down my face
Will I feel defeated and fall apart
Or shall I bow to life and leave with grace

Am I in the company of strangers
Or are my friends and family around
Am I glad I left this world and all its dangers
Or is there so much more to be found

Waiting

Waiting, waiting, all day long
Alone in bed on my back
‘Till the doctor comes along
I am feeling like a wreck

Please tell me please what is wrong
Why I’m feeling so down
I really thought I was strong
But now I’m feeling rundown

Like a train wreck passing by
Not yet certain of its faith
My body heaves a big sigh
Destined to be a grand wraith